4 Ways to Transmute Difficult Emotions

Check out the article I wrote for ModBod:

Emotions can be overwhelming. Feelings like sadness, anger, grief, and loneliness can seem unbearable, especially when we live in a society ill-equipped in understanding the purpose and function of human emotion.

The typical formula is suppression, repression, denial, or some form of intellectual or spiritual bypass. We’d just assume not have any emotion, than to feel the painful ones.

Unfortunately, we need our emotions to function optimally as a human. Emotions are an integral part of our internal guidance system, and when we ignore or suppress them, we cause major damage not only to our mental health, but our physical health as well.

Here are 4 tips to deal with difficult emotions:

1. Allow yourself to feel: The reason difficult emotions feels so…well…difficult, is because we resist them. We want to feelEnergy-and-Girl good, and when emotions arise that conflict with what we want, we typically suppress, repress, or bypass. The resistance between what we feel and what we want to feel causes immense intensity in the emotional body — this is because the emotions are being held back. When we release into the emotion, the pressure eases.

Emotions are meant to be felt. They are our vibrational indicators and are necessary for our survival and happiness in this life. Emotions let you know where you are (vibrationally) in relation to where you want to be. When we resist how we feel, our guidance system has to resort to other measures to get our attention (like sickness in the body). Give yourself permission to feel what you feel. Feeling is not failing.

2. Validate how you feel: Once we allow ourselves to feel what we feel, validation is crucial. Often we feel as if our emotions are out of context: perhaps we feel we are overreacting, or maybe we’ve been told we’re just “too sensitive.” But emotions are always valid. We feel what we feel for a reason. The intensity of what we feel may not be directly related to what is occurring at the moment, but the emotions come from somewhere, and they matter, nonetheless. For true healing to take place, the emotional body must be trusted. You don’t have to act on the emotion for validation, simply tell yourself “What I feel is okay.”

3. Release the emotion: Now that our emotions have been felt and validated, it’s time to let them go. Emotions, once felt, butterfly releasemust be released. Release is not the same as suppressing or bypassing. It’s not forcing yourself to feel differently or ignoring the pain. Release is about allowing our emotional body to run efficiently. Emotions are meant to flow. When we block the flow, it causes imbalances in the body and (as noted above), sometimes illness. If you’re having a hard time releasing an emotion, it probably has not been fully validated. Go back to step 2 and take time to validate how you feel. Deep trauma takes time to heal.

4. Direct your focus toward relief: Relief goes hand-in-hand with releasing emotion. Once you’ve let an emotion go, ask yourself what you need and give attention and focus to the feeling of relief. Your internal guidance always knows what it needs, and it’s always speaking to you. You may have to practice listening, but it will communicate. What do you need? Maybe it’s a hot bath, a walk in nature, or dinner with a friend. Don’t hesitate to pamper yourself after the release of a difficult emotion. Taking care of your emotional needs is how you develop trust with yourself and build a strong emotional body.

Emotions can be powerful tools, but terrible masters. Treat them with respect but don’t fear them. They are your friends and comrades in this life experience. Welcome them in.

Empaths Forgot Their Power

Empaths: Sensitive people whose primary mode of communication is vibrational – highly responsive to energy.

Conflict: Most have used this ability to hide or manipulate rather than feel and thrive. We call this “helping hurt-heartothers.”

When I first realized there was a name for what I was, I read as much as I could about what it meant, and was immediately discouraged.

The message?

You’re basically the most vulnerable person on the planet. Good luck with that. Don’t forget to “buckle up” with your “shield of protection.”

Great. So I’m sensitive (already been told that my entire life).

But perhaps the most nauseating part of it all was reading the many blog forums and online articles where empaths and Highly Sensitive People (HSP) glorified their terrible boundary issues and blood doll status as if it were a badge of service to the planet.

Ugh.

I can’t say this is true for everyone, or that how I’ve learned to thrive as an empath will work for everyone. All I know is the prescribed classic remedy of “shielding/protecting/coping” didn’t work for me. At all. And in fact, it made things worse.

Here’s what I’ve learned:

I’m no more special than anyone else because I’m sensitive. Nor am I more vulnerable or weak. People develop acute empathic abilities for all sorts of reasons: some are born that way, others learn to read people’s emotions as a means of survival due to abuse. Whatever the reason, being an empath is no more special than being good at playing instruments or sports. It’s just part of the human diversity.

I’m not trying to take away the importance or power of this gift, but I also don’t want to elevate it as a super human ability, and here’s why:

Many empaths have a deep, core sense of unworthiness, and while it is important that we learn to see our value, it is black and white flower and womanequally important not to believe that being ultra-sensitive makes us more special than others. This only breeds further isolation and elitism, which is counter intuitive, really, because the mere fact that we are extra sensitive to other people’s energy is a reminder that at a fundamental level, we are all one – we’re all connected. Deep healing, then, comes from harmonizing with that energy around us, not creating separation from it.

Second, when empaths set themselves apart from the rest of humanity as the “sensitive” ones of the planet, we typically end-up glorifying co-dependent relationships and unhealthy boundaries because we falsely believe that everyone’s happiness depends on us and we develop a sort of “helper” complex.

Or we take the shielding/protection advice and hide ourselves from the world, believing the only means of survival is to go into the psychic’s version of the “witness protection program.” We disengage from relationships and “normal” life and call it “coping with our sensitivities.”

These are two of the most common pitfalls many unskilled and unhealed empaths stumble into (and I was no exception). The problem is, helping or hiding from the world is not thriving.

Those who take the “helper/light worker” title often end-up further blurring the lines with unhealthy relationships, creating a sort of dependency on other’s needing them and identifying their ability to disempower others (by creating emotional dependency) as their empathic “gift.”

Allowing others to suck your energy dry is NOT what it means to be empathic.

You can’t make your life better (and you certainly can’t get empowered) by trying to make others happy. Making others’ happiness your primarily focus doesn’t make you a hero, it makes you a blood doll.

What to Avoid:

Don’t become an energetic food source for others. Not only is it unhealthy and unsustainable for you, it is the equivalent of energetic suicideenergy vampires. If you make others believe you’re the only one who can make them happy, heal them, or save them, you do them a diabolical disservice: you disempower them.

Hence the drama with empaths and narcissists since the beginning of time.

Reminders:

It is not your job to change the world (or others) and you couldn’t even if you tried.

The only person you can ever truly change is yourself. Self-mastery is the greatest gift you can give to others, because when you do it, the world sees it can be done. You become an inspiration. You make empowerment attainable.

The only reason you would choose to come into this world with highly sensitive vibrational abilities is to learn how to USE them, how to navigate with them, in order to facilitate your own self-evolution. When you evolve, you “upload” (in a manner of speaking) the codes for self-evolution/mastery into the human consciousness grid. When others see it can be done, they have more belief that they too, can have self-mastery. Running around trying to fix the world will only give you more people to fix (and will drain you of your power in the process).

The world doesn’t need to be fixed. This reality works exactly as it was created to. It gives us what we put out. It perfectly reflects “us” back to us. This is why it is so useful for our self-evolution. And this is why self-mastery is so crucial. The only way we will ever truly have enough power in the world to make a difference is through mastering our own lives, first.

This is not to say that loving others is not important. No doubt the planet could use more love. But altruism isn’t the same as dependency. In order for people to learn, they have to be free to walk their path. God loves us enough to give us that freedom, and it’s crucial we give it to others. When we do help, it should be because it feels good to do so, not because we need to be needed or because we feel obligated to do so. Even when Jesus healed he said “Your faith healed you.” The emphasis was always empowerment.

Give a man a fish, and you feed him for a day. Teach a man to fish, and you feed him for a lifetime.” 

The Problem:

We simply got lost. We forgot our true purpose is inner mastery. come alive2

Most of us focus our attention on the external world, feel too much, shut down, and that’s the end of it.

We tune-out how WE feel and make other people’s emotions our primary focus because we think that will make us feel better. Feeling other’s emotions and trying to ‘fix’ them seems much easier, because it’s less threatening. Our own emotions, quite frankly, scare the shit out of us.

Why? Because we’ve been told our entire lives that to feel too much is to be weak. And most of us have untold amounts of heartache, pain, and even abuse we’ve never looked at. Our sensitivities make us feel too vulnerable.

The problem is, focusing on others doesn’t actually make us feel better. Sure, it distracts us, but it doesn’t set us free. It doesn’t empower us, and it certainly doesn’t empower anyone else.

At best it gives us a temporary sense of worthiness by being “needed” or loved for what we can do for them – at worst it fuels co-dependent relationships that bleed us of our power. We’re left with nothing but emptiness. And that emptiness is too unbearable to feel, so we bury it, along with every other emotion that would indicate we are OFF COURSE, and go back to allowing others to feed on us. Being an energetic food source gives us a feeling of worth and purpose – for a moment, anyway – an empath’s equivalent to a drug fix.

After the effects of the ‘fix’ wears off, we feel weak and lonely. We may have a lot of “close friends” but we feel like they don’t know us at all – not our true selves anyway, because how could they? We’ve buried our true selves along with all of our emotions. We fixate on the external world and expend our energy to its never-ending need, giving what little power we have to a cycle that can NEVER give back to us. It’s unsustainable, and it’s energetically barbaric.

So what’s the solution?

Here’s what I’ve learned:

FEEL. FEEL. And FEEL!

The biggest mistake empaths make is to shut off their emotions.

But the ability to feel deeply IS our power. It is the power of humanity as a whole. When you allow yourself to feel the emotional healingemotional space WITHIN and communicate back to the world with your strong, finely tuned, highly sensitive capabilities, you create a sort of empathic dialogue with the energy around you and begin to learn what it means to create your own reality (or really, just line-up with a reality that is best suited for your growth and evolution). When you create a harmonic internal  realm, the external begins to harmonize around you. That is how you bring more peace and love to the world. This is true compassion. It starts within.

This is a vibrational Universe, after all, and emotions are the strongest vibrational indicators we’ve got at our disposal. When you look at it his way, emotions, and the ability to feel deeply, becomes our super power.

Don’t believe feeling deeply makes you weak. Vibrational sensitivity gives you the power to move anywhere on the grid you wish. It’s not a matter of brute strength and it certainly has nothing to do with “logic” – it is vibrational intelligence.

This is as simple as asking yourself (in any given moment) what feels good and what doesn’t. Then moving in the direction that feels most empowering. But you will never know what that is unless you TUNE-IN!

So how do you tune-in?

GO WITHIN. The universe within2

Go within. Allow yourself to FEEL where you are, without judgement or identification. Emotions are not YOU — they are simply your indicators. They help you know where you’re at so you can get to where you want to be.

Give yourself the sustaining, nurturing power of your own presence. Love yourself enough to be free from the emptiness of co-dependency.

Don’t allow the world to make you feel your emotional capacity is a weakness. Don’t believe the lie that being empathic is an acute form of vulnerability. And NEVER shut your heart down.

Feel.

Emotions are your greatest tool.

Use them.

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Magic Makes Everything Better!

Lately I’ve been feeling so BLAH. Uninspired. Pointless, even.

As this particular brand of “low” has lingered longer than I care to entertain, I figured I might as well make the best of its visit. So I decided to pull up cozy chair, pour some hot tea, and gather a list of some of my favorite things (to add a note of enchantment to the misty fog and heavy rain that seems to have taken up residence in all the shadowy places of my being).

Thought maybe you’d all get something out of it to:

Trees. They just make me happy. Especially these enchanted ones:

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Water. The perfect element to evoke when having tea with sadness (or any emotion, really).

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The Sun. Ah the clearing, restorative, empowering energy of sunlight. Bon appetit!

(This first one, I took last fall in Utah, the second I took at a nature park in Sacramento, the third one I found on google images):

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Magic stuff. Always helps me feel more alive (all from google images):.

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Now I’m off to write about magical worlds — at winter time. Gotta work with where I’m at.

Happy Monday!

What Are Emotions?

Emotions are power.

I’ve always known this, but the more inner child/shadow work I do, the more I realize the brilliance of their function.To emotional healingunderstand what an emotion is, it’s important to be still and allow yourself to empath the nuance and subtly of what the moment FEELS like. When I do this, even if I’m sad or angry, I realize the feelings themselves are not painful — they are beautiful, enchanted movements of energy that act more like paint than solidified, unmovable road blocks.

Emotions create our auric landscape — the screen around us by which we allow our physical bodies to either feel safe and soothed, or nervous and inflamed (which is what it looks like in the body when we resist where we are and ignore, bypass, or judge our emotions).

Tuning-in to the emotional body, for me, feels like a beautiful underwater enchantment. The waves of emotional vibration are completely fluid, which means if we FLOW with the vibrations, we can move through them with ease and grace. This is part of opening the heart chakra and learning self-trust. It’s an aspect of emotional mastery. It’s our power.

What does it feel like when you tune-in to your emotional body?

If you were to simply feel, without judging any emotion that may arise, what kind of picture would your emotions paint around you? Tuning-in to the emotional body is one of the fastest ways to tune-in to your power. It’s an excellent way to get an idea of how energy is moving around you and what you are in the process of creating and attracting into your experience.

But remember: emotions are not YOU. They are simply vibrational indicators. Emotions make the moment what it is, helping you know where you are so you can flow to where you want to be. No emotion is wrong. You don’t have to feel happy all the time. It’s not only unrealistic but it’s unhealthy. Emotions helps us flow through dense realities and contrast, and are there for us to move energy in-and-out of our bodies. It’s difficult to shift from feeling anger to joy, but possible to flow from anger to relief if we allow our emotions to move naturally and don’t stop their flow with unnecessary judgement.

Emotions are magic like that. Always moving, if we allow them to.The problem is, we get addicted to certain emotions and demonize others. This will never work if we want to flow in a meditationbalanced/harmonized way with this life experience.

Every emotion is valid. We don’t have to base our actions solely on feeling, but we can allow ourselves to move THROUGH emotion by first accepting all of them as equally beneficial for our journey and growth. Emotions are here to teach, not control. And it’s important to release resistance to them in order to receive the power of their function.

Lately I’ve had a lot of questions about this topic. The New Age movement, with all it’s focus on positivity, has left many in a chronic state of spiritual bypass, and it’s starting to catch-up with us. Denying how you feel will never lead to true peace because peace implies authenticity.

Remember: it’s okay to feel. Emotions are our vibrational language and suppressing or denying them only limits our ability to communicate.

Let it flow.

Hope you are all having a fantastic Sunday!

Much love!

Amanda

PS. I go into a lot of detail about emotions (and how they work) in my “Creating with Emotions online class.” It’s a good place to start if you’re one of those readers who wants to go deeper.

What I Know For Sure

Oprah has a section in her magazine called “What I know for sure” (something like that). Every month she reflects on herSnake energy most recent life lessons and narrows it down to what she can say she knows “for sure.” And it got me thinking; what do I *know* for sure? Believe it or not, it’s a much harder question than I anticipated – especially when I’m in such an intense process of undoing, unlearning, and unknowing.

Here’s what I’ve boiled it down to:

I know that self-love is not just about accepting our “flaws” or “humanity” – it’s also about acknowledging and allowing our power – our Being – to simply BE. In fact, my most “god-like” moments have little to do with altruism or grand demonstrations of love. Rather, the moments I feel the most content and in love with life is when I’m allowing what I feel inside to be what I express on the outside – and it changes all the time! Being authentic – allowing exactly what I am to matter – to be, and to show. The fact that these moments are standing out with such profound clarity is a deep indication of how much of my life I’ve spent being inauthentic, for the motivation of being more loved, more accepted, more likeable.

What a prison.

The truth is, I don’t know. I feel unsure. I feel elated. I feel powerful. I feel beautiful. I feel invincible. I feel vulnerable. I feel like I DO know. And rather than qualifying these passing feelings to definition, I’m simply allowing myself to be a contradiction. I find the more I embrace my inner paradox, the less ambiguous I become.

When I really think about it, the biggest lie I use to tell was how insecure or weak I felt. I told that lie a lot – because I fullmoonwitchthought it made me more likable. Somewhere along my journey I got the message that to be confident about myself was prideful. Or to do/write/be where I authentically resonated was unacceptable, intolerable, or unpalatable. In the confusion of trying to be acceptable, I forgot what it meant to be. That’s when I started to lie. And it seemed to work. People seemed to enjoy or feel disarmed by my self-depreciating tendencies, to the extent that I made it a huge part of my personality.. But it never really felt good to me. And what I’m learning is, it wasn’t fair to my relationships. Living a lie may feel more polite, but on an energetic level, it’s barbaric.

So here’s what I know for sure: I don’t want to lie anymore.

I’ve stopped pretending to be anything other than what I am. Sometimes I feel small and insignificant, but mostly, when I’m really honest, I feel/see how immense and powerful I am. That I can be significant and insignificant simultaneously is awe-inspiring. And what’s most surprising to discover is, I really like myself. I’ve spent so much time believing to hate myself was the more righteous thing to do, that I never realized I was fighting against my most basic nature, which is love. I actually love myself.

I like that I’m a walking paradox. I like that I’ve tried and failed a million times. I like that I can throw a fit when things aren’t going well because I know deep down life is MEANT to be lived awake and aware. I like that I allow my vulnerability to be seen and still take care to give my heart what it needs. But most of all, I like that I’m human. People typically associate “humanness” with being weak or flawed, but I see it as the most badass modality for expressing many truths, and failing all of them simultaneously. How ingenious of us! This experiment is working well.

So here’s to being human, to not knowing (and sometimes not even caring) what “the truth” is. I just know that I Am. And that’s enough.

Body Magic

What a beautiful gift we’ve been offered:

A chance to be released from the prison of the body’s programming. I’ve come to believe that harmonizing our sacral chakra angelexpanded consciousness with our body is necessary if we are to truly experience bliss in this physical dimension. The body is our space suit (so to speak) and is programmed to respond and interact with our physical world in a way that serves our soul best. The problem is, our missions are changing.

Our understanding of how this dimension works has expanded to include everything we need to not only survive, but thrive. It only makes sense, then, that our body (the most physical representation of us on earth) would need new programming in order to line-up to a new reality.

This goes far beyond “being healthy and in shape” — it’s about releasing ourselves from all the protective cocoon layers we’ve created as we’ve gone through this metamorphosis. It’s about allowing our deeper, more vulnerable aspects to be “exposed” and harmonized with our life here on this planet. Our vulnerability is a superpower, because it is the catalyst for true change and transition…and we need ALL that we are now — half versions of our Being just doesn’t work anymore.

The body is where we store everything about who we are and what we’ve experienced here. It can feel like a prison or a chariot of ascension, depending on our own beliefs about who we are and how the body reflects us. I’m learning that our inner creative energy — our spark – our flow, is designed to transform the body into everything it needs to be for the type of experience we want to have on earth.

It’s not about beating the body into submission, but rather releasing into its unique, transformative healing. It’s about surrender. It’s about trust. It’s about feminine magic.

When we connect our sacral chakra energy to our inner knowing/Source Self (and release into the experience of our divinity and our humanity making love) it is an experience unlike any other — the true reason I believe we incarnate into human bodies in the first place. This is a bliss many will never experience because to trust our bodies into a state of total surrender, naturally releases our built-in triggers, programs, and trauma.

During the process, we can either stay in a state of surrender and trust (like the caterpillar in the cocoon dissolving into a liquid goop while being transformed), or we can hold on to the identity our pain and survival has given us and resist every step of the way. That is pain. I believe this is why many get sick with diseases like cancer. Our bodies are not meant to eat us alive, but that’s what resistance looks like. That’s what depriving ourselves looks life. That’s what “giving without receiving” looks like. Need I say more?! It’s okay to release into a state of receiving. It’s okay to trust. It’s okay to believe your body, the Universe, and the Source energy within you wants to GIVE to you. Its okay to accept that gift.

I’m still removing “protective” layers I’ve had for a long time — they were my survival up to this point, but are no longer chakra magicneeded. My physical body is learning to trust all of me, and I’m learning to trust my body. It feels like a deep cleansing of the DNA and healing of the trauma I’ve experienced as more expanded aspects of my consciousness harmonize with my physical form, and “lower” (sacral chakra stuff, especially) rises up to create me anew. Baptism by fire.

We must be gentle with ourselves. Make sure to tune-into what is *REALLY* needed. What feels harmonious and self-loving? Let yourself receive it. Not in a way that says “I allow myself to feel pain” but rather in a form that says “I give myself permission to receive pleasure” — the kind of pleasure that comes from the healing only our Goddess nature can bring — the healing that comes from our Sacral Chakra — our creative and restorative energy.

Aligning with our sacral chakra energy is about receiving and trusting our feminine nature. In the process, old programs will inevitably come up for release. It’s important not to identify with your thoughts OR emotions. Just let them be released and FEEL the catharsis — the “pleasure” that follows the healing. This is what sexual energy does. It’s not “dirty” or “low” or even “fleshly” — it is Divinely nurturing and awakes us to our deepest desires/passions.

The transition from a life of surviving to a belief that it’s possible for us to thrive is a form of release that can be experienced with resistance or flow. Let’s not demonize any version of ourselves. We are human — a mix of vibrations compressed into physical form. There’s no need to judge any part of us in our desire to grow and expand. Harmony in this experience is possible if we release our need to be right or perfect. We just are. Allow. Trust. Surrender. Receive. That’s the formula.

I think the magic we’re unfolding is unlike anything this planet has ever experienced. Our “job” is not to “DO” anything — but to BE in love with every aspect of what we are — to make love to this Universe by receiving ALL of what we are (and trusting it).

I keep feeling the need to take it slow so I can unwrap every nuance of this experience like a unique piece of magic, rather than a chore to be done or a test to pass. Let’s treat ourselves that way — like dazzling treasures of darkness, not problems to be fixed. That paradigm is ending. The real question is, what do we do with all this creative/restorative/transforming energy?

Let’s make love!

What it’s Like to Die

(Shadow integration = Poetry Night)

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I shut my eyes to see the room inside my head

where I collect fragile things:

One dried flower

a doll hung by the neck

And four vacant walls that whisper names of those I tucked deep into shadow.

It’s like a cemetery for the breathless forms that turn water to ice.

In the corner of a vacant window a spider web reaches forward

with one lonely thread, as if to rescue me by silk.

I scrape the red off a rose to make blood between my thighs

so I can feel what it’s like

to die.

Empowering the Sacral Chakra Online Class (Women Only)

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In this LIVE, online class FOR WOMEN, we will be focusing on clearing, healing, and releasing the creative/sexual energy in the 2nd chakra.

Almost every women I interact with in my intuitive work have blockages/trauma in their Sacral Chakra. The social and chakra magicreligious conditioning throughout history has done untold damage not only to female sexuality, but to our experience with the physical world around us.

We’ve been told that to take care of ourselves, to have desires, or to enjoy life (or the “flesh”) is to be selfish or unspiritual. We’ve been told our sexuality is dangerous.

Most of us carry untold amounts  guilt and shame when it comes to allowing ourselves to enjoy our senses and our physical bodies. We’ve been taught there are “spiritual” ways to live (which usually involve abstaining from anything “pleasurable”) and that there are “fleshly” (or sinful) ways of experiencing the world (typically anything involving desire).

This class is going to flip that concept on its head. We will focus on transmuting the negative energy in our sacral chakras to a divine experience of our lives as we interact with the pleasures of the physical dimension.

We are meant to enjoy the physical world. All of it.

It is through the energy of our sacral chakras that we bring heaven to earth.

Sexual energy is one of the most powerful, misunderstood, magical energies a woman possesses, and because of social programming /fear of female power, it has been completely misused/abused by the society (for centuries!).

There was a time when women would study in Priestess houses together — perfecting their sexual art and studying the deeper mysteries/magic of feminine energy, the art of seduction, and how to use those powerful energies to bring people into alignment with their God Self. History, of course, makes it appear that these sacred temples were merely brothels (and unfortunately, as society turned away from Spiritual Wisdom they became that), but the essence — the true meaning of those mysteries is still within us.

I’ve been healing/experimenting with this on my own for the past couple years, and I’ve had some PROFOUND/POWERFUL/HEALING/MAGICAL revelations and experiences. There is nothing quite like feeling empowered as a woman (especially with sexual energy) and learning how to keep it in balance, but not feeling shame about who and what we are.

This class is about understanding/experimenting with our female sexual energy (through energy work/manifestation/creative outlets) and being able to connect with other women about the process.

There is nothing less spiritual about the physical senses than our extrasensory ones. Allow yourself to enjoy both! Live with passion! That is truly how we will bring heaven on earth.

In the class we will focus on:

*Deleting shame/guilt programs stored in our Sacral Chakra

*Acknowledging and soothing sexual trauma

*Ignite our passions/dreams/desires

*Using Sexual energy to upgrade and activate our Higher dimensional awareness

*How to move our passions into a 3rd dimensional experience (without guilt!)

*Transmuting negative energy in the sacral chakra to a more positive flow/experience with the world

*Exploring sacred sex practices (energy work with the sacral chakra)

TO REGISTER for the class, fill out the form below and complete your purchase through Paypal. I will open a private kyanite stoneFacebook group for anyone who registers so we can share our experiences with the process and support one another. We need our sisterhood allies!

*Please make sure to register with the email you have associated to Facebook so I can add you to the forum

Class starts April 22nd and goes until  May 22nd. All who pre-register will receive a free orange kyanite stone necklace (a powerful sacral chakra healer/activator stone) and an online workbook on healing and empowering the sacral chakra.

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Go Home, Get Triggered, Write a Poem.

Yes. That’s what happens when I go home, I get triggered.

I think everyone can relate — especially if you’re an empath or highly sensitive. “Home” is like walking into the middle of a landmine. No bueno.

I knew when I planned this trip it was going to be a test. A test of how well I can remember who I am.

Before going I had more than one dream of floating on top of Utah lake, one of the main landmarks of Utah county. Utah lake3Beautiful to behold from a distance, but a cesspool of mercury laden fish and dead bodies — literally.

At the boat dock, warning signs assault any lingering serenity, advising would-be fishers not to eat more than a half a pound of fish from the lake in a YEAR.

Delish.

In my dreams, Utah lake is like the consciousness of the State — sparkling from the outside, full of poison within. And I know I come from here. It is apart of me.

A hard dream to swallow.

I must make friends with this place. Love it, like the shadowy places inside me– for they know not what they do.

Sometimes it works. Glorious moments occur where I shift into a new reality, and all is well. Utah is the home I always wanted — welcoming me with her majestic mountains. Smiling on me with her glorious sun.

But bliss is short lived and I wake to see the inversion settling in, filling my lungs with death.

Maybe it’s meant to always be a reminder of the contrast I come from — the stark memories of the life I don’t prefer, so I can go off into the horizon with renewed desire to create something new.

For some reason this trip home was the hardest one so far, and yet, the most freeing.

This poem emerged as an after thought. I highly recommend creating from melancholy — it leaves quite a ghostly whisper:

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At home her tall steeples frown down on me Utah topaz Mountain
as I reach for the sky where her finger points.
Her mountains shield fears
behind walls of trapped tears,
her air turns my lungs black.

A barren land – my milk-less mother
too weak to eat the metal fish in her pond.
With naked eyes I remove her blindfold.
Where Nothing Is
Everything is Hidden.

11 Days of Conscious Creation

The 11 Days of Conscious Creation (through audio meditations) starts on Feb. 11th! Everyone who pre-registers for the “Creating with Emotions” online class will automatically be registered for these meditations. Each day you will receive an email with an audio meditation or exercise, focused around activating the emotional body and conscious creation.

Here is a list of the daily topics:

  • Activating the Emotional Body: Turning on Our Power Suitsmeditation lotus flower
  • Shifting Reality: Using the Power of Imagination to See What Could Not be Seen in the Current Reality
  • Feeling Vibrations:Turning the Channel on the Emotion Body
  • Feeling Vibrational Boarders: Using Trigger Points to Ignite Creation
  • Receiving the Moment: Seeing the Multiple Probabilities of NOW
  • Creating from the Heart: Moving Consciousness into the Heartspace
  • Perfect Power: Love and its Creative Force
  • Activating the Sacral Chakra: Connecting the Heart and Sacral Chakra to Create with Power
  • The Power of Sight: Connecting the Heart and the 3rd Eye
  • The Second Heart: Activating the Heart of the Etheric Body
  • Focus: The Power of Fine-Tuned Awareness and Consciously Directed Thought

I’m doing a bit of an experiment with these meditations. I want to see how many people we can get to participate in the meditations and the class. If you know anything about the Hundredth Monkey Effect, it proves that as more and more of us figure something out (in this case, realize our power/freedom) that knowledge is downloaded into the human consciousness field and people begin to simply “get it” in larger and larger numbers. As the codes are activated and utilized in the human consciousness grid, it gets easier for ALL OF US.

I am passionate about freedom, and believe as we heal our emotional bodies and then use our emotions to consciously get FREE, it is the most powerful thing we can do for humanity. It doesn’t mean we will never struggle, but it is an important step in understanding we are not powerless to our struggles.

So for my own study/learning, I want to see what happens in my corner of the world as we co-create together. My intention is to have at least 33 people take this class/do the audio meditations (as 33 is a powerful Master number) and I believe there is power in numbers.

Spread the word (if you feel inspired to do so).

If you want to do the 11 Days of Conscious Creation without the class, you can purchase the meditations below for $11:

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You Didn’t Fail, You Expanded

There really is an art to surrender.

Fighting against every emotion, being “on top” on my vibration, trying to be intentional and conscious about every little thinguniverse love I do — well — it can sometimes take the joy out of LIVING. Didn’t we come here to be HUMAN? Why would we leave our place of Oneness — our knowing of All Things, to come into a human experience and deny ourselves the experience/blessing of being a singular person with an ego and identity and flaws? We will never learn real love by having an attitude of intolerance towards our learning process.

Living on purpose and with awareness is important (of course) but I feel so many of us feel like if we know we create our reality and anything exists in our experience that does not feel like BLISS, we somehow failed as creators. But we would never be able to create anything at all if we didn’t first experience creating what we don’t want.

We came here to fail and succeed, because in this reality, you can’t have one without the other — it’s the nature (and brilliance) of a dualistic world. The trick is to not see anything you do as a failure, but simply as an experience that teaches us all more about ourselves, and helps us further our expansion. It is only our judgement/beliefs about any experience or situation that gives it a negative or positive feeling — not the experience itself. Drop the judgment.

I am beginning to understand that the key to happiness in this life is not being perfectly in alignment all of the time (or even emotions590% or 70% of the time), but to love and embrace every experience/emotion/creation along the way. LOVE THE PROCESS. LOVE THE JOURNEY. SURRENDER TO LIFE. Give yourself grace. Surrender to the experience (which means failing, messing up, trying too hard, feeling small and insignificant — all of it). You came here to give yourself the perspective of separation just as much as you wanted to understand more fully what Oneness is. We wanted to learn to appreciate all of what we are — not just the aspects that feel acceptable.

So if you are feeling like you failed, you’re too weak, or you just can’t get it right — let yourself off the hook. You are PERFECTLY where you are, and that is always enough. Accept and surrender, and the flow of life will take you to your next level of expansion.

Sending appreciation for all of you today! Thank you for being courageous enough to be HUMAN! What miracles we are!

PS. This interview with intuitive empath Sonia Choquette SO resonated with me because she offers a loving voice to the benefit of failure and points out how we often bypass our humanity (especially in the spiritual community) because we feel we must be perfect. So real and authentic!

The Journey Home: How Pain Can Lead to Power

Sometimes I forget I matter. noseparation

I forget my emotions are my friends (not my enemies).

I forget contrast is here to serve me (not master me).

I forget I am worthy of love.

Coming “home” is where I typically pick up all of my old insecurities:

I’m not good enough, it would seem. I’m unworthy of truly being free.

My first response to is beat myself up. WHY?! Why in the name of all that is holy would I choose to come back to the place I feel the worst about myself? Haven’t I learned my lesson? Why would I do this to my emotional body?!

If I follow that line of thought, the only conclusion I come to is that I am powerless over my emotions and I will always be stuck here – rooted in trauma and fear.

But I know being “stuck” is impossible in a world of constant growth and expansion.

So I press on, guiding my focus toward a stream of thought that feels better to think.

Although feeling powerless shifts responsibility away for a bit (how I feel is caused by THIS PLACE – not me), the truth is, I know better. I know the feelings come from within. I know my thoughts are the ones in control here, not this geographic location. “Home” is a hologram built on my experiences and beliefs.hurt-heart

And I begin to regain power.

Oh yes. That’s right. I get to choose what to think about – where to direct my focus. What do I want to think? What will feel better than these thoughts of powerlessness?

I need to know I have my best interest at heart. I have to know God loves me enough not to abandon me in these feelings of unworthiness. I want to remember the way the Universe allows me to continually revisit deep places of conflict to give me the opportunity to heal further, to accept, love, and understand myself with more clarity. I want to develop more compassion and an unconditional presence to my emotions.

Yes. That’s it. That’s why I’m here. I needed to show up for myself – especially in these places that feel the most unacceptable.

Okay. These thoughts feel better. I feel my vibration shift. I feel more empowered. I feel more taken care of. I feel more seen and heard and loved.

Maybe I’m not abandoned.

So here I am – the genesis of my trauma. I loved myself enough to come back here, right? What do I want out of this experience? What do I need? How do I want to feel?

Perhaps I simply need to be reminded I am not alone. I Am here. God is here. Purpose is here, in this place. This is a loving place to be – a loving thing to do to myself. I need this reminder. I need to know this part of me matters.Rumi poem

I chose to come “home” because I wanted to show myself I care enough to strengthen the places within me that need the most unconditional love.

I chose to revisit old wounds because they asked me to bear witness to their presence – they begged not to be abandoned in the past. And I love myself enough to show up.

I am thankful I have the courage to come home. I need this part of myself for the journey.

Oh yes. I remember now. I almost forgot about the journey – the moments of love and soothing presence offered along the way. The peace found in the storms – the halleluiah chorus along the way reminding me why I chose to come into this life in the first place. This knowing is the reason – this space between pain and beauty – the place of surrender and acceptance of all things, especially the hurt.

Now I can say I am truly thankful (and mean it) for this spot on the earth called “home.” I have not failed here – this is where I had my greatest success. Here I chose to live and hurt – to love and lose and bleed and desire. This is the place I am continually led to for renewal of hope. And God meets me here, in my “weakness.” This place is where I find my greatest strength.

Here I am free.

Monday’s Magic: Soothing the Emotional Body

A Daily Affirmation for Self-Soothing

I Am – Letting go of my self-concept

Today I see and validate that I Am – and that is more than enough. love energy3

I allow my emotions to flow like a powerful river and I thank them for being my allies in this experience in the physical.

I Am a powerful creator and I know my thoughts and emotions are creating the reality I see before me

Therefore I direct my focus inward – to the causal plane.

I embrace the tremendous power of the NOW and choose to bring 100% of my focus into the present moment.

In this moment I embrace and accept all that I feel, and I choose to direct my focus in flow of relief/validation/and self-love – in a way that gives to my emotional body a deep soothing comfort.

I acknowledge that my emotions are my superpower, and I choose to listen to their wise counsel, always bringing in the Wisdom of my Higher Self to help decide the best course of action for my moment.

This moment is eternal as I am eternal. There are no limitations and no time rush. I have time to feel how I feel and give myself what I need. There is space for me to bask in the delicious and soothing energy of self-care.

love energyI know that through this self-care, I will be more whole, more powerful, more creative, more authentic, more compassionate, and a wiser human.

By allowing myself to FEEL I am causing the expansion of the entire Universe – letting All that *is* be apart of my unique perspective.

It is an honor to be in this human body and feel my way through this existence. I am eternally grateful for this power that has been bestowed on me in this moment, and I choose to use it to the fullest potential of each and every *now* the Universe offers me.

I trust the Love of the Existence and receive in it the deepest parts of my soul, in all the places that have lost hope or feel fear. I allow unconditional LOVE to heal all of me, to be present with me in every moment with every emotion.

I will never abandonment myself again, but will do my best to show up and be present to my emotions, trusting in the wisdom of the Universe to guide me into Joy.

I give myself grace. I forgive everyone, everywhere, in all timelines, especially myself.

I receive the moment and all that it has to offer. I am free.

2015: The Year of Invincibility

Happy New Year, family!

I’m calling it the year of invincibility because that seems to be the vibration we’re all anchoring in. 2014 we learned how to manifest, we healed old beliefs and trauma, and we learned how to say “yes!’ to us (which often meant saying “no” to others).

This year is all about strengthening our vibrational boarders, activating our inner Djinns (Genies/Genius/Magicians) and vibrationsbringing forth the kingdom within us. We are becoming Masters of Polarity – we no longer live in a world where polarities exist to enslave us, but rather to strengthen us – to make our journeys more exquisite.

In the Chinese calendar, it is the Year of the Ram (or Goat). With the Ram as our ally, we can make incredible breakthroughs in our inner strength. Old habits and patterns we’ve been in for years will be released this year. We are stepping into our power as the creators we are.

Many are also calling this time “the return of Christ.” Christ is returning in our hearts – in a way that is unprecedented. It’s the return of true, Universal love – the union of our humanity with a true knowledge of our Oneness with God. When we step into this knowledge (as Christ did) we will begin to see the meaning of Jesus’s words when he said “…you will do even greater things than these…”

Stepping into our creative power means nothing more than mastering ourselves. By mastering our inner worlds, our external world will reflect that change, and it starts NOW. NOW is all that is and is where ALL of our power is held. If we surrender our power to the future, we will NEVER attain it.

Although 2015 consists of 12 months, it is all one continuous moment. Rather than making goals about things you will achieve this year, decide to receive the power of the moment. Choose right now how you want your moment to feel and anchor in those vibrations – then make a commitment to yourself to continually enhance and fuel those vibrations with thoughts, emotions, and most importantly, FOCUS, that will help strengthen your vibrational boarders.

Activating your invincibility is about just that – strengthening vibrations. We know this is a vibrational universe – that every thought, emotion, sound, and even inanimate object has a frequency to it. We also know that like frequencies match like frequencies. Make sure everything that surrounds you is in harmony with the kind of vibration you want in your life. This is not about striving for change or to make things “better” — it’s about receiving all the love and perfection that is available to you RIGHT NOW — in Tquantum-energy-healingHIS moment. It’s an act of surrender, as well as a practice in focus.

What is the vibration of the music you listen to? The movies you watch? The thoughts you continually think? The people you spend the most time with? The books you read? The decorations in your house? The food you eat? Those things powerfully contribute to the overall vibration you hold and what you are a match to. Once you clear out the old, it is important to continuously fuel the new – this is how you strengthen your vibrational boarders. This is how you assure that you will no longer be a match to old behaviors, habits, and situations.

Healing triggers points on the emotional body is one of the most important steps in strengthening your vibrational boarders, but how to best do that will be different for each person. Tune-in to how you feel. Care more about how you feel than anything else. This is crucial.

Make a choice this year to be a Master of polarity – a master of your own vibrations. Activate your inner genie (or magician) and make the choice to strengthen the vibrations in your life that bring you freedom, remembering that this hologram is PERFECT. You don’t need to change the world – you only need to decide what you want to create and step into it vibrationally. Line-up with your inner freedom and you will step into the power of your own invincibility.

Happy 2015! Make magic!

Adonai!

Empowering Empaths and Magic Workers to thrive!

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