In many religious and ‘spiritual’ circles, emotions are often viewed as an enemy to be reckoned with, Shadows are feared, and egos are to be slain. To be ‘emotional’ is to be weak and to be weak is to be undeserving. To have darkness is to be devoid of Light. To enjoy the unique perspective of our ego, is to be without empathy.
Suppressing these fundamental aspects of our humanity is a detrimental belief system to ascribe to. At its core, the good vs. bad mentality teaches us that being human is somehow wrong. When we put ourselves under this belief system, we have no choice but to view our ‘human condition’ as one we must continuously fight.
Downloaded with this program and raised within it, most humans either feel a call to raise up arms and slay the human aspects of our experience (anything pertaining to the ‘flesh’) or simply surrender to their “base instincts” and choose to luxuriate in them. Hence the human drama as it has been from the beginning: fight against your flesh or succumb to its debauchery. Those are our options.
The ones who choose to “fight the good fight” arm themselves with good intentions, moral behavior, and beams of light as they proceed into the “darkness” to slay anything (and any one) that would dare cause them to experience contrast. The term “light worker” itself comes from this energy, and many of us who feel drawn to this “higher calling” often feel separate from the rest of humanity, as if we are on a sacred mission to save the world. The very words themselves (“light worker”/ “higher calling”) suggests there are those with a “lower call”/less important life path, or imply we have no darkness – a belief that is in fact, destructive. We don’t realize we ourselves often strengthen the “darkness” by our resistance of it.
The energy imbued in the very spiritual language we use (and the hierarchy we place ourselves in) makes us feel we must belong to a special category of humans and therefore are above feeling/experiencing the challenges every other human faces. As a result, when we go through periods where we don’t feel particularly high vibe, wise, spiritual, or ‘moral,’ we feel the need to protect others from our emotions and hide-out in a prayer of self-analysis until we fix the ‘problem.’ Or we simply deny how we feel, suppress our Shadow, and continue acting like the good light worker (or religious person) we feel we should be. We do everything but BE REAL.
Here’s the deal:
*We’re no more special than anyone else on this planet. We don’t need a calling, super human soul path, Star Origin, or Church to justify our existence and make us valuable.
*We all have a Shadow, and contrary to popular negative sentiment toward darkness, the Shadow can be our Greatest Teacher. It’s okay to integrate it. In fact, it’s necessary for true freedom and expansion.
So many “light workers” have been caught-up in the mundane rat race of the Matrix, the battle between good and evil, and the struggle to survive, that we believe the only way to justify our existence is through living a life of perfection, or by ascribing to a path that makes us feel more special, moral, or ‘gifted’ than the rest of humanity. We feel the need to separate from our own Shadow because we’ve come to see humans as weak, stupid, emotional, unwise, ‘sinful,’ and dangerous. The pitfall in this type of thinking is twofold:
*It cuts us off from a fundamental aspect of who we are (regardless of our soul origins, religious beliefs, or spiritual practices, we are here, participating in the human experience as a human and co-creating this reality with everyone else).
*It perpetuates the “us and them” mentality which fuels the illusion of separation.
We are all powerful in our own ways, all weak in our unique wounds/chosen path of expansion, and we have all chosen to come into a holographic dimension that reflects our thoughts/emotions back to us. How we perceive this hologram is only a reflection of US, not of the hologram itself. We see the world not as it truly is, but as WE are.
We can’t hide from ourselves here. Everyone we judge is us. Every experience we have is a reflection of us. Every belief we have will show up in our experience, in the exact vibration in which we believe it can manifest. It’s all us. This dimension is a training ground for our soul’s expansion and our judgments only serve to limit the possibilities of what we experience here. Judgments offer no salvation – regardless of how safe they make us feel.
Ultimately, we are all One, and our experience of the One is unique to our soul’s chosen path. There is no “elite” group (or cursed group), or any group that is more accountable to this hologram than another. We are ALL co-creating this experience, and we are all powerfully fueling this illusion — some of us are just more conscious of it than others.
As we increase our awareness of how and what we are doing with the energy in this dimension, it becomes imperative to continually remind ourselves that every person who comes into our experience IS a mirror of us — of our own thoughts. Any judgment or belief we have about another is ultimately one we have about ourselves. The journey of freedom from the Matrix is an inward path of expansion – not an external battle.
When we experience pain, it is crucial that we ask ourselves “what thought/wound/emotion is this experience reflecting back to me?” Then we listen without judgment. We allow our souls to learn from our experiences — to Shift our perspective. There is freedom in surrender.
Let’s let ourselves off the hook. We don’t need to justify our existence through good works. Freedom won’t come by suppressing the darkness. Salvation from the illusion of separation won’t come by denying our humanity. True release is as simple as shifting our perspectives. Our Shadow has no power over us when we embrace it as the Teacher it is meant to be.
Let’s stop fueling the lie that we need to be set apart from the rest in order to be worthy of love. Let’s free ourselves from the belief that some of us are above humanity. Let’s put down our “light sabers” and choose to radically surrender to unconditional love in EVERY aspect of who we are. Only in this way can be free the pendulum swing of extremes within us.
And so it is with you.