Meditation Monday: The Power of Mantra

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Words are powerful. Every word carries a specific wordsvibration and frequency. When we allow the vibration of words to penetrate our hearts, they literally change the way we feel and think and perceive, by changing our very frequencies to match that of the words (or the emotions behind the words) we are allowing within our hearts. In doing this, we become a match for more of those feelings to enter our auric field.

It’s the same idea with thoughts, but unlike most thoughts, words have the added potency of carrying a sound vibration. In the book of Genesis, it is said that there was darkness, a void over the face of the earth and when God spoke, creation came into Being.

Words are also used in spells and incantations for the very same reason – the sound vibration of words have the _words_can_hurt_or_heal_smallpower to create. Even inaudible words or subliminal messages have this effect on our energetic and emotional bodies – it occurs even without our conscious awareness. It is critical to be mindful of the words we use and expose ourselves to. Our emotional and spiritual health depends on it.

Just as abusive words can have a negative effect on the body’s overall energetic field, so can positive words and specific sounds can raise our frequencies, opening of channels for healing, and smooth out our auric field.

One of my favorite ways to connect to the power of words is through mantra. Wikipedia’s definition of a mantra is “a sound, syllable, word, or group of words that is considered capable of ‘creating transformation.’”

I couldn’t have said it better myself. Mantra does just that – The Power of Words-marca águacreates transformation. When repeated several times out loud over a period of time (especially when this is your daily practice), mantras have the power of rewiring the brain by firing new waves and creating new neuropath ways. It’s phenomenal.

To really get specific about the etymology and history of the word mantra (and its link to practices in India and all different forms of yoga) would be another article entirely. The purpose of this post is to simply introduce you to a few mantras that I use to help me start my day feeling in total alignment with Source.

Sit in a comfortable position (preferably with your spine Shanti mantrastraight and upright). Take several, conscious, deep breaths and repeat the following mantras as many times as necessary. The idea is to repeat the mantra until you truly “feel” the power of them within you. For me, I know when they have deeply penetrated my heart when I can’t stop smiling, or suddenly feel tears of joy on my face. It’s a powerful experience.

A couple things to remember about mantras (or words in general):

  • what you put out, you get back
  • find mantras to use that make you feel good

You can create your own mantras. Just find something positive that resonates with you and doesn’t carry a negative intent to hurt others.

Here are some mantras that I’ve crafted for myself (each Mantrasentence can be its own mantra, or you can combine them all together to be one mantra):

“I Am connected to the Source of Love. I Am giving and receiving Love. I Am following the path of Love. I Am Love.”

“I Am always guided and protected by Love. I Am using my experiences in this world to grow and expand Love. I Am full of the power of Love.”

“I Am connected and transformed by the Light. I Am restored by the Light. I Am ready for wisdom. I am ready for Love.”

I think it is important to connect with the Source of Love daily. Know it intimately. Make sure that your own love energy is always in a healthy, powerful state. This is your only true power, because ultimately, Love is all there is. When you are full of love, you have everything you could ever need to thrive in this world.


Sandy Hook Tragedy: Lightworkers, Why the Bypass?!

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There seems to be this belief floating around the “spiritual” bear heartcommunity that feeling any emotion other than happiness and joy is somehow “wrong.”

It’s as if we’ve taken the Law of Attraction to be another kind of All Knowing, Judging God. Only now the sin is any emotion outside the realm of Pollyanna thinking and over-stretching optimism. While I certainly feel that joy is our most natural state, bypassing pain is not the way to get there. Remember the age-old adage: “what you resist persists.” Yet it seems after all we’ve learned through understanding how the Universe works, the message we have bought into is this: Ignore pain. Ignore suffering. Just be happy.

I noticed this heavily after the shooting in Sandy Hook Elementary. Our hearts are brokenMy normally very vocal and active spiritual community online was surprisingly silent. Only a few people (I noticed) said anything at all. The same people who make an online ruckus over a moon cycles and how important love is, were barely able to give a nod to the atrocity of the events on Friday.

I even noticed this struggle in my own heart. My first response was “turn it off. Don’t give it any energy.” It was as if we are afraid that to look at the suffering of those in Connecticut, because to look at it means we are choosing it to be our reality.

The concept of “we are all one” seems to go out the window when those aspects of us that are in incredible pain take a more public platform. It’s like we all wanted to pretend that that atrocity was caused by someone else’s low vibration, not ours, and to acknowledge it at all is to give it a presence in our lives that may perhaps reveal our own shadows. Or perhaps it makes us look “unspiritual,” because, after all, the truly enlightened have no emotional reaction to anything because they “know” the higher reality. Right?

This is why I disagree:

You can never truly heal if you don’t go THROUGH the emotion – bypassing is not healing. And healing is not the same as ignoring. Choosing to focus on sending love to those who are suffering is not the same as focusing on the atrocity.

Focusing on pain or tragedy seems to strike fear in the heart of many light workers, dreading that “terrible” event of a “lowered vibration.”  And to be fair, it is certainly easy to get pulled into the drama of tragic events if we’re not careful to stay present to our hearts while facing the pain.

But it is possible to face pain and hold a space of love while keeping Hugging true compassionyour vibration high. It’s called transmutation. And it the foundation of all healing. In fact, it’s the foundation of our light-work, is it not?

True healing is not bypassing the pain, it’s going right into it with love and compassion.  This step can’t be skipped. It’s impossible to heal without it.

Holding a space of love for the suffering of others and our own “shadows,” is not the same as ignoring suffering all together. Like it or not, pain DOES still exist in this world. There is still a shadow…and that shadow will grow bigger if it is not faced in love, validated, and healed.

If life has taught me anything, it is that ignoring a problem does not make it go away. Grief is necessary for true healing. In fact, grief can be a truly liberating and freeing emotion.

After my mom died, I didn’t grieve for years – I just simply didn’t know how. But pretending I was okay didn’t work. No matter how hard I tried to be happy, somewhere deep inside me desperately ached, and by not giving that pain validation, it grew.

We are all called to walk that delicate line between acceptance/surrender and resistance/despair. Bypassing the work of healing all together is the root of suffering . If we refuse to face our shadow, it will find a way to get our attention – and the more we ignore it, the bigger it gets.

Just look at the man who instigated the shootings at Sandy Hook police-huggingElementary – he was clearly suffering from unhealed aspects of his own shadow. And I’ll be bold enough to say that by ignoring the suffering of these people (who are other aspects of ourselves), we are perpetuating the same problem that caused these deaths to begin with.

What happened in Connecticut is not a reflection of somebody else “out there”; it’s a reflection of ALL OF US, because we are not separate from these people. Whether we choose to look at it or not, the suffering of the families in Connecticut (and around the world) affect us. It is our suffering. And these sufferings will continue to affect us until we embrace true healing. If someone else is hurting, we all are hurting. There is no way around it.

It strikes me as odd that the very people claiming love is the only answer, are unsure of what to do when people are in need of it. By choosing to ignore the pain and suffering of those in Connecticut, we are choosing to ignore our own shadow.

And I don’t just mean the “victims’’” pain, but also the man who inflicted it. Yes, he too is a reflection of all of us, and we have to face this. Hating him will not heal anyone, anymore than ignoring him will make him go away.

It’s time to come to terms with who and what we truly are. We must Sandy Hook vigilembrace all aspects of ourselves. We are not in this alone. We are not separate from those people suffering in Connecticut or Darfur or Iraq. It may seem far removed from us, but it’s still there, and it is desperate for validation, love, and healing.

I cannot speak for the majority of light workers, this is just what I experienced on Friday: near silence, a few nods of acknowledgement, and several philosophical, New Age babble about how it is all meant to be – how these kids created their reality and in some “higher perspective” out there it’s all good. And that’s all fine and well, but the fact of the matter still exist: these people are hurting. Like it or not, that is our global reality.

I know all of my fellow light workers are powerful healers, with deep empathic abilities and loving intentions for the transformation of this world. So where was the love on Friday?  Why aren’t we bonding together to meditate and send healing to these people? I’m still trying to figure that one out.

I once posted a blog on Chakra Center about hugging trees and to-date it’s had more views, feedback and shares than any other article I’ve posted on this site, even more than my call out for a meditation of love for the people in the Sandy Hook Elementary school tragedy.

Light workers! What’s with the silence? It is in times like these when your love and powerful abilities are needed most.  It is in deep suffering that people need to know they are not alone. In order for pain to heal, it must first be validated, then we must do our best to surround them with the love within us.

We should never let a problem to be solved, a fear of “low vibration,” or any “New Age” belief become more important than a person to be loved.

Just something to think about.

Connecticut Community Copes With Aftermath Of Elementary School Mass Shooting

Holding a Space of Love for Sandy Hook Elementary

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In place of our regular Meditation Monday post, we are asking all bear heartof our readers to hold a special meditation prayer for the peace and comfort of the beautiful lives lost on Friday in the Sandy Hook Elementary school shooting. We were also inspired by a post on Facebook from one sister of light:

“I’ve been racking my brain and heart on how to actively move forward in love to counter-act (on some level) what  happened to the children, teachers, families, and community in Connecticut. An idea came to me that I thought I would share:

My kids and I are going to do 26 acts of love and kindness, one for every angel that just entered heaven. We will help light the lanterns of hope, Gods love and unfailing light in what seems to be very dark times. I invite anyone who wants to do the same…

LET’S ALL DO THIS AND ENCOURAGE OTHERS AS WELL IN HONOR OF REMEMBRANCE OF ALL THE SWEET ANGELS! IMAGINE THE RIPPLE EFFECT IT COULD HAVE ON OUR WORLD!! Every person that you do an act of kindess for will usually pay it forward and the impact of LOVE it could spread would be amazing!! ♥” – Nicole Ramirez (and idea inspired by her sister, Jennie Larsen).

Love is more powerful than hate. Although we can’t take away the suffering of those involved in this tragedy, we can do our part in heart planethelping to hold a space of love for this small community. We can pray for the healing of their hearts and the hearts of those around the world that face atrocities like this every day. We can keep our faith in humanity, and choose to believe the true nature of all people is love. We can use our wisdom to remember all pain, all psychosis, and all evil acts stem from a place of suffering. We can choose to face our own shadows with compassion. We can use our thoughts and emotions to create a world where this kind of pain no longer exists.

We cannot combat hate with hate. Love is the only solution. Love is the answer.

Please consider joining us in 27 special acts of kindness, each in remembrance of the lives lost at Sandy Hook Elementary. And continue to pray for the suffering of everyone around the world.

Feel free to share your stories with us here at Charka Center.

Let’s spread love! The world desperately needs it.


For each act of kindness you give this holiday season, consider doing it in the name of one of these 27 beautiful souls:

— Charlotte Bacon, Female, 02-22-06 

— Daniel Barden, Male, 09-25-05

— Rachel Davino, Female, 07-17-83 

— Olivia Engel, Female, 07-18-06

— Josephine Gay, Female, 12-11-05

— Ana Marquez-Greene, Female, 04-04-06

— Dylan Hockley, Male, 03-08-06 

– Dawn Hochsprung, Female, 06-28-65

— Madeleine F. Hsu, Female, 07-10-06

— Catherine V. Hubbard, Female, 06-08-06

— Chase Kowalski, Male, 10-31-05 

— Jesse Lewis, Male, 06-30-06

— James Mattioli, Male, 03-22-06

— Grace McDonnell, Female, 11-04-05

— Anne Marie Murphy, Female, 07-25-60

 — Emilie Parker, Female, 05-12-06

— Jack Pinto, Male, 05-06-06 

— Noah Pozner, Male, 11-20-06

— Caroline Previdi, Female, 09-07-06

— Jessica Rekos, Female, 05-10-06

— Avielle Richman, Female, 10-17-06

— Lauren Rousseau, Female, 06-?-82 

— Mary Sherlach, Female, 02-11-56

— Victoria Soto, Female, 11-04-85 

— Benjamin Wheeler, Male, 09-12-06

— Allison N. Wyatt, Female, 07-03-06

Wednesday’s Wondrous World: We are all One!

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Today we choose to remember that true change begins at the level of thought. When we have a hateful thought towards another, we only create more hate. When we judge another, we are judging ourselves. Everything we feel and think and do effects everyone.

In honor of last night’s election (and all the emotions that ensued for people across the world) we wanted to put together a line-up of videos that bring hope, remind us of our commonalities (rather than our differences), and how despite all the “problems” in the world today, we all want the same thing: love.

Regardless of your political stance, at the end of the day we are in this together. We are one.

When we choose love, we transform the world. LOVE is who we truly are:

Wednesday’s Wondrous World: Laughter is Medicine And Research Proves It!

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Today’s Wednesday’s Wondrous World is all about laughter. They say it’s the best medicine, and we wanted to share with you just how therapeutic (and contagious) it can be.

But first, check out this informative article from

“Humor is infectious. The sound of roaring laughter is far more contagious than any cough, sniffle, or sneeze. When laughter is shared, it binds people together and increases happiness and intimacy. Laughter also triggers healthy physical changes in the body. Humor and laughter strengthen your immune system, boost your energy, diminish pain, and protect you from the damaging effects of stress. Best of all, this priceless medicine is fun, free, and easy to use

Laughter is strong medicine for mind and body

‘Your sense of humor is one of the most powerful tools you have to make certain that your daily mood and emotional state support good health.’ ~ Paul E. McGhee, Ph.D.

Laughter is a powerful antidote to stress, pain, and conflict. Nothing works faster or more dependably to bring your mind and body back into balance than a good laugh. Humor lightens your burdens, inspires hopes, connects you to others, and keeps you grounded, focused, and alert.

With so much power to heal and renew, the ability to laugh easily and frequently is a tremendous resource for surmounting problems, enhancing your relationships, and supporting both physical and emotional health.

Laughter is good for your health

Laughter relaxes the whole body. A good, hearty laugh relieves physical tension and stress, leaving your muscles relaxed for up to 45 minutes after.

Laughter boosts the immune system. Laughter decreases stress hormones and increases immune cells and infection-fighting antibodies, thus improving your resistance to disease.

Laughter triggers the release of endorphins, the body’s natural feel-good chemicals. Endorphins promote an overall sense of well-being and can even temporarily relieve pain.

Laughter protects the heart. Laughter improves the function of blood vessels and increases blood flow, which can help protect you against a heart attack and other cardiovascular problems.

(For full article, click on the following the link:

Have you got your daily dose of laughter? If not, we thought we’d provide some good rainy day remedies:

This baby knows how to laugh!

Who knew laughter could be a form of yoga?

Laughing with Friends is the best!

Adorable surprised cat:

Have you ever met Maru the cat? He’s always good for a laugh: 

And for those of you who love bathroom humor, Jack Vale is laughter-drug must!:

Wednesday’s Wondrous World: More Random Acts of Kindness + Winners Announced!

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Welcome to another day to celebrate love!

In honor of Wednesday’s Wondrous World, our dear friend, Polona Somrak of Ascension Pioneers  created a video honoring our highest potential and random acts of kindness:

And since our home girl Ellen is always doing random acts of kindness, we wanted to highlight one in particular that we LOVED:

What about dressing up like a cheery flower and just giving stuff away on the street? That’s what these two animated characters did:

Our brother Brendon over at Paradigm Shift submitted this inspiring video on his “Plant a Seed” project:

The talented Jordan David from Spirit Science shared the truth of Unity with Chakra Center for today’s celebration:

And finally, our brother Joey Ortiz made this thought-provoking video on the state of being love. Check it out:

Thank you, everyone for sharing your thoughts, kindness, and love with us! Keep sending those videos/stories in! Our intention is for Wednesday’s Wondrous World to be an explosion of inspiration!

We wanted to conclude with announcing the winners for Amanda’s intuitive reading giveaway!

October’s Intuitive Reading: Rebecca Y.

November’s Intuitive Reading: Gita

December’s: Mitchell M.

Much love to all of you!


Wednesday’s Wondrous World: Random Acts of Kindness

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Welcome to Wednesday’s Wondrous World – a celebration of all the LOVE, GIVING, and BEAUTY on this planet!

And it seems we’re not the only ones celebrating! Since we made our first  post on how love transforms the world, we found several other organizations and people with the same sort of idea – to create a revolution of kindness!

Teal Scott launched a “Random Acts of Kindness” challenge on her YouTube channel:

United Way also asked communities to commit to random acts of kindness:


And we found countless acts of kindness caught on camera and featured on YouTube:

Young Baseball fan’s act of generosity caught on tape

31 Days of Anonymous Acts of Kindness

A Police officer’s random act of kindness caught on tape:

Paying it Forward: A man who drives around the highway looking to help people who have broken down:

The Power of One

Isn’t our world beautiful?  Humanity is full of love, and so are you!

Don’t forget to send us your own stories/videos on random acts of kindness to feature on Wednesday’s Wondrous World! Together we can make a difference!

Wednesday’s Wondrous World: A Gift of Love

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*Note: This was intended to be published yesterday, but due to unexpected events, was not able to make it up on the site. But all is well. Today is the day this message must be most needed*

It is said that things happen in threes.

I’ve been seeing threes everywhere lately. Threes and ones. Beginnings and completions. 13 – The number of the Ascended Master :  3:33 , 3:13, 1:13 on the clock, 1333 house numbers, 31 and 13 on road signs  – ones and threes seem to be lurking around me, peaking out at every corner, soothing me with their peaceful reminder that all is well, all is beginning and ending simultaneously.  The unfolding of All Things is perfection.

Today is our Wednesday’s Wondrous World celebration here at Charka Center,  and not surprisingly, the 3rd day of the week. As it so happens, it’s also our first official giveaway for this special day. First celebration (1), for Wednesday (3rd day of the week): 13.

I wanted to kick off the celebration by giving. And as three seems to be the magical number in my life, the holy trinity of balance, I felt guided to give things away in threes. Here’s what I’m offering:

Three Open Spots to my New Wring to Connect with the Elves online class.

Three Free Intuitive Readings (one for each of the next 3 months).

Three personalized Healing Elixir Meditations (this is something I have only offered to specific people in my life, but I am opening it up to the Universe  to guide me to people who need it most).

*Fill out the form below to enter to win any of the above giveaways. Just remember to pay it forward.*

My intention is for this post itself to be a form of healing for anyone who reads it, so I’ve imbued it with LOVE and HEALING from my heart and the Heart of the Universe. I also felt guided to leave you with these three symbols to meditate upon for your continued growth, release, and strength. Within these symbols are powerful healing energies. Allow them to feed your Spirit and set you free:

The Heart:  “Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life.” Proverbs 4:23. It’s all about the heart. The heart is central to all things. If you lose heart, you lose your awareness of peace, your knowing of Oneness, your ability to truly receive the abundance of the Universe.

Take heart, my friends! You are worth more than you can conceive, and you are worthy of love. You do not need to prove to the Universe or to anyone else that you deserve love. You are worthy of love simply because you exist – you are a creation of Love Itself.

Your heart is your emotional guidance system – your compass through the shadows of death. Allow it to be restored! Allow true healing to penetrate its walls. Allow the Universe to remove your heart of stone, and give you a heart of flesh. True tenderness and vulnerability is not weakness, it is your strength!

Receive the Healing of LOVE. Let your heart be set free!

The Acorn: Symbol of Good Luck, Growth, Survival, and Perseverance. It is also the Symbolic Seed of Human Potential. Ralph Waldo Emerson said: “The creation of a thousand forests is in one acorn.”

The acorn is here to remind you that no matter how small or insignificant you feel,  you carry within you an infinite sea of potential! Just you, by yourself, have the power to create enough love on the planet to transform the world. Never underestimate the power of who and what you truly are. Never believe the lie of separation.  The world around you is a hologram. There is nothing outside of yourself that will “save” you. It is the treasure within that you must seek. Bring forth the kingdom within, and you will see its reflection in the external world around you. You are free!

The Magic of Winter:  Winter is the mysterious, transformative death that strips away the inessential. Many fear the coming of winter, but winter is our blessed gift: for through winter we are reborn. This year has been one of many loses, but also much growth. The challenge is to allow your heart to embrace the coming winter with joy – wrapping itself around the majestic silence of snow.

Let your inward world be Silent. Your gifts, potential, and power need the coming hibernation of winter’s magic, as all that no longer serves you is stripped away. Winter brings the final death, so you can be fully reborn and new. Meditate upon the mystery of winter. It is the healing of your soul – the true restoration of your powerful heart.  Embrace both life and death. Both exist within you and both serve to bring forth what you truly are.


I leave you with this beautiful video by Jordan David on the Truth of Unity. Remember, I AM you, sending this message of love to you. I AM captivated by your beauty, in awe of your strength, and in LOVE with your Soul. Remember who you are.

Love Transforms the World!

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Often the simplest acts of kindness have the greatest impact; some spare change, a blanket for a baby, or a piece of food for a hungry animal. Love shines a light where hate lurks, it charges the heart far past the brain and it moves our energy more efficiently than negativity could ever hope to.

It may be easier to focus on the problems: the terrible acts of injustice, the social issues to be resolved, and the attributes of humanity we just don’t like, but the truth is, everyday, in every corner of the world, people love! – In big and small ways, and we want to talk about it, celebrate it, and to pay it forward! That’s why we’re dedicating an entire day here at Chakra Center to shine a spotlight on all that is memorable and marvelous about humanity.

Welcome to Wednesday’s Wondrous World!

Every Wednesday we will feature giveaways, stories, and random acts of kindness: Opportunities for you to both give and receive, love and create. But we need your help!

We are collecting videos, stories, prizes, and ideas for acts of kindness all week. Then, every Wednesday we will host a giveaway (for items/services we’ve had donated throughout the week), and include stories/videos and testimonials everyone has sent in.

Exciting, right?! And the best part is, YOU can help this catch-on.

Share this post with everyone you know. Let’s create the vibration of abundance, love, and fun! Giving and receiving is basically the same thing. When you give, you also receive. When you love, you create an expansion of love in the Universe.

We’re passionate about exploring the ways in which LOVE can transform the world. We want to see how much we can give through the love (stories, videos, giveaways) you send in.

We believe in the transformative power of LOVE. We know that what we are capable of achieving is endless – limitless.

Thanks for helping us create a sacred space to give, receive, and transform the world!

Send your ideas/videos/giveaways to contact-us.

Need ideas for random acts of kindness? Check-out this link: kindness-ideas

And to help kick-off this celebration of love, Amanda is giving away a free Intuitive Bliss reading (this is an hour and 1/2 Skype or phone intuitive reading). To enter to win, fill out the form below:

Giveaway Winners!!!

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Today I drew the winners for last Monday’s giveaway (and sent everyone who entered an energetic blast of love, too! I hope you felt it!)


Giveaway #1: The Sculptor in The Sky (by Teal Scott) 

Nicole R. & Christopher C.

(I wasn’t intending to give two books away, but when I drew the names these two came out stuck together, so I figured it was a sign from the Universe that they both needed the book).  🙂

Giveaway #2: Writing to Connect with the Elves (and Discover Your Bliss online class. 

Good news for all of you who entered to win the “Writing to Connect with the Elves” workshop…Because of the response and interest I have received, I decided to offer the class on donation basis only, giving me room for more people.

This will change the structure of the class a bit, but the great news is, you can all join (free of charge!). If you entered this giveaway, I have officially signed you up for the class. You will be receiving an email  shortly with details! Yay!

Giveaway #3: Heart Session/Intuitive Reading 

Tabitha J.

All winners will receive an email announcing their win.

Congratulations and thank you for entering. Stay-tuned next Monday for more giveaway announcements!

And of course, remember to pay it forward!

Peace out.

Finding Purpose in the Past: An Interview with Teal Swan

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‎”Oh yes, the past can hurt. But, you can either run from it, or learn from it.”     -Rafiki, (The Lion King)

“What is my purpose?” It was the name of a Teal Scott video I randomly clicked on YouTube. The question was pacing my mind just moments before the title appeared, so I took the synchronicity as a sign. I knew nothing of Teal Scott. Yet that was all about to change…

But let me back up.

I had just arrived in the States after spending six months in Italy – a place I thought would be a permanent residence, until one afternoon while meditating upon a particularly mournful cloud wandering in the Florentine sky, Spirit said to me: “Go home.”

Home?! What home? Prior to Italy I had spent the past 10 years in Portland, Oregon – the weirdest and most liberating place I had ever been. Portland is full of tall trees, wide rivers, and farmer’s markets – plus it’s considered the most “un-Churched” city in America – my favorite part about it.

Apart from grey skies, I could handle going back to the land of hipsters and hippies, but Portland wasn’t the Spirit’s call, and I knew it. My insides tightened at the thought of what was coming…Utah. The word hung in the air like the moody cloud drooping above my head. How could God want me back there?!

Don’t get me wrong, Utah is not a bad place. The mountains possess a noble, native magic, and the summer skies are full of violent purple, and thunderous mountain tops. But the vast, dry valley carries my own shadows, and memories I’d rather avoid.

My father was a Mormon polygamist.  Between three wives he managed to have 16 children (of which I am the youngest).

Mainstream Mormons do not practice polygamy, so my family history was not exactly dinner conversation with friends. The Church of the First Born convened in Mexico (where polygamy was legal) but a bloody religious war had caused my family to go into “hiding” in Utah.

The killings happened before I was born, but my dad (then an apostle of the church) and family were on a hit list. That’s all I ever knew about it, but I still have memories of church members coming in and out of our house, hushed whispers, and that constant, uneasy feeling that some foundational part of our lives had been shaken.

My mom left the church (and my father) when I was quite young. Luckily she found a small, Christian church to attend, and with it, a relationship with Jesus.

I experienced first-hand the peace that filled her heart (and our house) after her conversion. But some in my family were still attached to inherited belief systems, and with her death when I was 12, came fear among certain family members that God punished her for leaving the “one true faith.”

I didn’t experience the hell my siblings went through, but I resented the religious bondage I felt had been tied around our necks — and something about Utah always reminded me of it.

And now here I was, two weeks after arriving from the heart of the Renaissance, spending a pointless afternoon on the internet, aimless and lazy, and loathing my decision to ever come back.

Enter Teal Swan.

When I first heard her voice, my head tilted slightly sideways and up, the way humans tend to move when they listen intently. Something was familiar. Oddly familiar.

A couple weeks went by and I continued to watch Teal’s videos, incessantly trying to put my finger on what was so vaguely recognizable. Unsatisfied, I headed to her website and was shocked by what I discovered:

One: She grew-up in Utah.

Two: She was abducted into a religious cult at the age of six and ritualistically tortured for 13 years.

I contacted her that day.

Teal Swan was not like other children. It wasn’t long into her young life when it became apparent she had unusual abilities. Spontaneous healing, clairvoyance, clairsentience, clairaudience, manipulating electromagnetic fields, and communicating with entities, were all normal occurrences in her daily life. It wasn’t until word got out in the community, that she understood something about her was very different. And it was a difference she would  pay for.

Mormonism teaches authority to heal, receive direct messages from God, and other gifts Teal was demonstrating,  is only available through the Melchizedek priesthood. If a woman is exhibiting these abilities, the gift is believed not to come from God, but from the devil.

Living in the highly religious community of Logan, Utah, most neighbors became fearful of Teal’s abilities, and forbid her from entering their homes. Children were not allowed to play with her, and her parents received strange messages declaring their daughter was a sign of the second coming.

But there was another group who caught wind of Teal’s extrasensory phenomena. Unlike the Mormons in the area whose response was ostracization, this group (known as The Blood Covenant) believes it is their direct duty to rid the world of evil.

One of the leaders, a sociopath with an extreme case of dissociative identity disorder, infiltrated her family, abducted Teal at the age of six, and ritualistically tortured her for 13 years.

Teal was physically and sexually abused in religious rituals, forced to participate in sacrifices, repeatedly raped and starved, and made to have three abortions of children fathered by her abuser. Tied-up and left in a hole in his backyard, her abuser used her to be photographed for sadomasochistic pornography, prostituted her out of motels and gas station bathrooms, and repeatedly exposed her to electro-shock programming. And the list of abuse goes on.

Yet, despite the horror experienced at the hands of this man, Teal’s message is not one of revenge, but of forgiveness:

“…this book is dedicated to the man who ‘ruined’ my life. I find in retrospect you did not ruin it at all. I see now that we are only ever victims of victims. I am sorry for the pain I know you suffered in your life. I have stopped the cycle, and now I have you to thank because you were my greatest teacher (as difficulty always is). Without you, I would not have even thought to look for the happiness I now possess today. One day you will know that you are free.”

Those are the words Teal Swan wrote to her abductor in the  acknowledgement section of her book, The Sculptor in the Sky. I had read them just moments before she sat down with me for an interview at Café Supernatural, in Salt Lake City. The impact was still palpable.

“I was surprised to discover you lived in Utah,” I said, as  a waitress brought us our juice. “Something about you felt familiar to me the first time I saw one of your videos…but Utah must be it. I think I was picking-up on the Utah energy…”

Teal smiled. “Yes.” she responded, in a way that made me feel she wanted to say more, but thought better of it.

I wanted to say, “I know you from somewhere. I have this strange feeling we’re connected in a way I don’t quite understand. And I think you’re tied to the reason I’m in Utah.”

But what came out was:  “I’d love to hear more about your story…whatever you feel comfortable sharing…”

The details of Teal’s abuse are not the focus of her message. But just as it is difficult to see stars in the day, the backdrop of darkness is necessary to fully appreciate the intensity of her light.

She shared openly, demonstrating a graceful inner strength and conviction. For Teal, there is purpose in the abuse. To her, no part of the pain is meaningless. She sees past suffering as the very catalyst to give and experience healing.

But it shouldn’t have happened that way. It is said that severe psychological abuse is akin to death. In the face of extreme trauma, one is usually written off as irreversibly damaged. Doctors and psychiatrists who evaluated Teal after her escape declared her brain was “dismantled beyond repair.”

Though several years of therapy would prove that not only could Teal come back to a place of wholeness, but she discovered the techniques and visualization she learned through therapy were so successful, she was inspired to write The Sculptor in the Sky, as a guide to healing.

Teal now uses her unique abilities, her story, and her connection to the Source of Love, to inspire change. She’s coined the term, “Spiritual Catalyst,” to describe her work.  With her healing gifts, she acts as a medical intuitive to people with extreme physical conditions and diseases. She holds “syncronicity workshops” around the world to help people understand how to use their thoughts and emotions to raise their vibration and heal their life. She conducts personal consults once a month, and speaks out publically about the unproductive prison and jail systems, stating that “you can’t punish anyone into wellness.” Teal has devoted her life to help humanity heal.

Her story reveals our capacity to overcome, even the most extreme places of darkness. It shows us the way out of powerlessness. It gives a picture of life beyond revenge, and into a place of forgiveness and peace.

As we sat in Café Supernatural, I felt my bitterness toward Utah begin to dissolve. The anger from my own religious past simply faded in the glow of her overwhelming ability to love.

Later in our conversation I would admit I was unsure why I was in Utah. And Teal would respond:

“The reason you’re here is less of a mystery to me. There is a reason I wanted to meet with you in person. It will hit you.”

Watching someone face trauma with love, heal abuse with compassion, and take on anger with forgiveness, helped me let go of bitterness I held toward extremism. I was meant to come back to Utah. I was meant to see her video, and I was meant to talk to her that day. Teal reminded me that I chose Utah, even before I was born. There was purpose in all of it. Everything was exactly how it needed to be.

Teal’s ability to forgive showed me that I had the power to let go, and allow my purpose to be fully restored.

What happened that day when I stumbled upon Teal’s video,  was not a mere act of coincidence. It goes beyond synchronicity. It is bigger than this article, or Spirit’s reason for calling me back to Utah. What I saw that day with Teal, was me. Who I met that day, was myself.  I met  you. I met the whole of humanity, and I saw a glimpse of the future we are capable of entering.

If you asked Teal what healed her, I think she would say, ultimately, it was her faith. To believe beauty can rise from ashes is the impetuous that wills it so.

Every time an Olympic record is set, it changes humanity’s  belief about what is possible. Teal’s story sets a new precedent for the capacity of human love. She shows us we are capable of living beyond mere survival. We have the capacity to be fully restored to the light.

By choosing love, Teal did not only heal the darkness of her own wounds, she healed mine. She healed yours.

Don’t be afraid to open yourself up to the limitless capacity of love. Imagine what the world could be. Imagine what we could overcome.

And so it is with you…

For more information about Teal Scott, visit her website at

Teal Swan ,”The Spiritual Catalyst” is a well known Esoteric,  Extrasensory who writes and speaks publicly about spirituality, the meaning of life, God, The Higher Self and the road to health and happiness. Teal is part of the first 1980s wave of indigo children.

Amanda Flaker is a freelance writer, editor, and creator of Chakra Center. She loves to travel the world and write about it.